Not the Way Some See It

dedicated to the essential workers who didn’t ask to be front-liners without the care they need.

how do essential mental health workers make space in our privilege for those who need the physical connection? These are curiosities, doubts, feelings, spaces I am battling through.

(majority vs. the other)

Dear woman

            who the pained trusted

who said “can you say more?”

where are you?

 

hardest part of life

wander

wonder

curious

 

Dear Silence

of humanity

souls who’ve died alone

On earth

earth silent bodies

protect only themselves

while other bodies

 

You say Jesus

Knock knock

On doors of hearts

The neighbors

Listener woman

Can you perceive it?

 

Your own resurrection at the pain of others

Dear lost woman

 

She says

I am here, dear one.

unnamed standing on my head

Drowning me

Pushing me down beneath dark waters

Simple, silly girl

 

Rebuttal to the therapist

If this doesn’t teach you that

Pandemic

Humanity is connected.

you’ve learned nothing

standing on my head

the husband who works or not

children who study or not

unemployed who have no pay

still

 

Reply of dear woman therapist

Breathe and maybe

 

Did you know majority therapist? I say

life is bought by grocery workers

Yet you isolate yourself

At expense of pain, real stabs and reeling minds

others who aren’t like majority illness conditions 

of recognition

 

dear woman still says

You can loosen your grip

 

Chorus respond:

What about

affliction

not cancer

lack of sight

 

Says majority woman

It’s not Jesus

But here.

And see that I am here

my distance

 

Well, dear woman says the chorus

people die for you

they don’t know you

no requirement to give nothing back

their lives worthless

pain unseen

I was struck by the rumor that this is

something that doesn’t affect

who’s gonna believe that

this is the thing

this is serious

 

essential therapist woman-isolated-choice

I am here.

 

CHORUS

The responsibilities of some people’s lives

Masks

Stores

Workers

 

Where are they to be

To protected bodies

You can come

 

Again, woman says

But have limitations

 

Livid now, chorus tells her truth facts

I already know

people of color

but you won’t

one body-mind is all you care about

standing on field workers

strawberry pickers

majority therapist woman

I need you to respect my “no.”

 

Well, essential woman

Your no is privilege